ME TODAY

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Let me tell you something about myself. I have changed. In the past few months, many things have changed in me, in my mind, in the way how I see the world, how I see myself. Friends and everybody around me are asking the same question: “Are you ok? Is everything ok?” And you know what? The truth is, that I am better that I have ever been. I feel released, free, happy and finally myself.

A while ago I loved the crowd, to be in really noisy places, surrounded by many people, friends and strangers around me, I loved the vibration of the city, I felt good in a fast running environment.

Today, I don’t know how to escape as fast as I can from the crowded places, I am running away from noise and my ears are bothered by shouting voices and loud music.

A while ago, I talked a lot. I was a chatter box, continuously giving advices, loved to be in the centre of attention. That was me.

Today, I am bothered if someone talks too much, and all non-sense.

A while ago, I felt that I have to compete with everybody, I have to be the best and I have to win all the battles.

Today, I am extremely happy of my own accomplishments, without comparing myself with others.

A while ago I loved noisy places, today I love the quiet places, I love the sound of the silence as I can hear my inner voice finally.

A while ago I lived for my family, my friends, I would have done anything for their attention and love. Today, I live for myself, in my own peaceful world.

A while ago, I loved to be surrounded by many people, having a lot of friends and strangers around me. Today, I love the company of beautiful, unique people.

A while ago, a just walked on a road, following the crowd. Today, I am walking on my own path.

A while ago, I was waiting for the miracle to happen. Today I live the miracle of life every day.

So, dear friend, who is asking me: “How are you?”, I would like to let you know that I am perfectly fine. 🙂

Love, Krisztina

P.S. a couple of days ago, my sister sent me a text, posted on Facebook by a beautiful soul. I just loved it, therefore I have adapt it, I rewrote a little bit on my taste and here I post it. Whoever wrote the original post, I really thanks you for sharing it and hopefully you won`t mind if I re/wrote it and share it to the world again, as my feelings exactly have been described. I am grateful for this and I thank you.

Namaste.

AJAI ALAI

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Good day to All,

The other day I came across this mantra, a beautiful, powerful mantra what you can use to strengthen your inner power and here I share it with you:

Ajai Alai – Invincible, Indestructible

Abhai Abai – Fearless, Unchanging

Abhoo Ajoo – Unformed, Unborn

Anaas Akaas – Imperishable, Etheric

Aganj Abhanj – Unbreakable, Impenetrable

Alakh Abhakh – Unseen, Unaffected

Akaal Dy-aal – Undying, Merciful

Alaykh Abhaykh – Indescribable, Uncostumed

Anaam Akaam – Nameless, Desireless

Agaah Ataah – Unfathomable, Incorruptible

Anaathae Pramaathae – Unmastered, Destroyer

Ajonee Amonee – Beyond birth, Beyond silence

Na Raagay Na Rangay – Beyond love, Beyond colour

Na Roopay Na Raykhay – Beyond form, Beyond shape

Akarmang Abharmang – Beyond karma, Beyond doubt

Aganjae Alaykhae – Unconquerable, Indescribable

 

Love, Krisztina

WHERE I AM NOW?

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WHERE I AM NOW?

Tuesday morning. Sunny and nice weather in London. Although, a little bit chilly 🙂

I have decided to take a day off today. What is pretty strange, as in the past few months I had no idea what a day off is. Actually, whenever I take a “day off” ended with me working from home. Maybe I am not consistent. I don’t know. Yes, I have “me minutes” or maybe, if I am lucky enough that “me hours”, but a whole “me day”…well..not really.

I am going forward and forward, and apply all those smart stuff what I know I have to apply. But my brain, seems like doesn’t really want to cooperate. When I learn one thing, I start to apply and I am pretty proud of myself, then another thing is coming up, and the “now what” question pops up. It’s never ending. That is ok, I know that. But my brain, my mind, sometimes goes here and there, distracting me. Continuously.

I am the type of person, who want all and I want it now. Funny, no? Being patient, waiting for the results to come, that is the toughest part of all. Train myself to be patient, that’s a challenge. A huge one. Enormous one. Then, get rid of all negative vibes, all negative people from my life. That’s a hard one too. I am trying hard to ignore, to avoid, but it looks like no matter I do, they keep coming back like a boomerang. I attract them, probably. Maybe. Definitely, if I think about the law of attraction.

Can someone explain me, how comes, that negative things happen faster than positive, negative people goes harder than that positive ones come, positive results come harder than the disappointing, not really good ones?

I do have the wish, the desire, I can see it in front of my eyes, I can feel it in every cell of my body. I know exactly how it will be. I know exactly how it looks like. I practice every day, I reached that point when even when I just think about it, I get very excited and feel the butterflies. But there is always a “but” and a “how” in my mind. From where it comes? How can I get rid of it? And when? How can I have a “day off” when all this thing cross my mind? Don’t get me wrong. It’s not about giving up. I will never give up. I have never give up. It is that burning curiosity, that feeling of ‘I want to know the answer”. Yes, I know that. I can fall sometimes, that’s ok. I learned to handle situations, look the other side of the story. Still, there is the question.

I am not an ignorant. I consider myself a quick learner. Oh, yes. I learn fast. I have a diploma in life coaching, I study psychology. “I know” everything in my conscious mind, what and how should I do. But can someone tell me, how can I make my dream to be my reality? How to stay positive all the time? How to keep the positive state of mind?

I talked in my writings earlier, about believing in yourself, be positive and never give up. I told you that’s a tough one, in the beginning. I am at the beginning. For me is difficult as well sometimes. It is a continuous battle with myself. My conscious and my unconscious mind. My habits, my beliefs, my environment, my friends, my family, everything. That’s a lot to carry. Now I can see that what I am asking from you to do, it is difficult for me as well sometimes. I will find the answer to my questions. Sooner or later.  I am a curious type of person. I want to help myself, and through this, to help others. But be aware, if you are staying with me, it will be a bumpy journey. But you know what? All that matters is the peace of your mind, the final destination, the things what we can learn together along the way. The ups and downs.

Maintaining a positive state of mind it’s easier when you have money. 🙂 so, I want my first million. And I want it now 🙂

I wish you all a sunny day.

Love,

Cristina

THE BATTLE WITH MYSELF

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I have decided to change my life. I realized that many of my actions and my thoughts were not the right ones, attracting all negative things in my life. I was struggling to learn to think differently, to think positive. It was a hard period, as I had many limiting beliefs what I have been carried with me for many years. Some of them from the day when I was born, some of them from my childhood and some of them from my teenager years. I found that some memories are not even mine, belongs to someone else. Making a deep cleaning in my mind, between my thoughts I found to be a tough one.

We all have this limiting beliefs, what we carry with us. For me it is a real battle to change the way I think, I feel, I behave.  It is very difficult to get rid of past negative experiences, it is a hard work on myself. But I know exactly who I don’t want to be, therefore I do my best to be the person who I want to be.

But from time to time, I fall again. I fall back, but I stand up. Again and again. As I have promised to myself. Just make a promise to yourself and then keep it. No matter what. Be true to yourself. This is what I am trying to do.  Sometimes it takes me a couple of days. Sometimes it is a matter of hours or minutes. But I know that when I am determined I can succeed. I won’t allow to myself to go back there from where I left.

I am strong and even when sometimes I face difficulties, I try to fight. There is a battle between my conscious and subconscious mind. It is like a training. When you are preparing for the Olympics. Sometimes I lost a battle, but I will never give up. I‘ll try again and again. Taking it as a lesson. Finally I will win.

I realized that I have to give time to myself to heal. The wound will be there, forever. But I won’t allow myself to not to fight. Eliminate all negativity takes time and courage. Courage to change, courage to say no, courage to listen to my intuition, courage to defend negative people, solve and close down problems from the past. Looking on the problem not as a problem, but as a challenge. I decided not to carry the past with me anymore. But on the same time, I need to sort out things first from the past. It is holding me back for a while. But I have to do it. I have to do it, in order to move on.

And working on myself is the biggest challenge of my life. Changing the way I feel, the way I think. Learning to have “me” time, learning to love myself, learning to dare, without fear. I have nothing to lose, but myself. And I don’t want to lose myself again.

And I go on. Because when I think on what I want to be, who I want to be and what I have to give from now on to other, gives me a feeling of peace and excitement on the same time. It gives me a feeling of happiness. I have taste it and I have to keep it. Therefore, I will do my best to learn to stay focused. Happiness is a choice, one’s said. Agree. I chose to be happy. I chose to be free and to do what I love. To do what gives me peace. If this is success, then I am already successful. Winning the battle with myself is a success. I am a successful person. Need to learn to not to be afraid of success. Another limiting belief. Within myself. This is the period when I work on this. I have recognize it. And I will change it.

When I have decided to change my life and to live the life what I always wanted, I thought it is going to be easy. Well, it is not. Because I have to work hard. Not physically hard work but mentally. However, sometimes it manifests as a physical pain. In my head, in my back and shoulder, in every cell of my body, in my muscles. Yes, that’s the fight.

I have reached the point when I believe in myself more than ever. And even if I fall sometimes, like nowadays, I will always find the strengths to get up and fight and go on. I have the motivation, I have been up and down, I have people around me who are doing their best to help me, but on the same time I have to help myself. Taking the decision it was the hardest. But I have faith, I believe in myself and after making small steps and realizing that it actually works, I will never give up again. I will not give up on myself.

That’s the secret: believe in yourself, believe in your ability to win, believe in your ability to change, believe in your dreams. Always.

ATTITUDE

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Whoever told you that if you want to be successful it is going to be easy, they had no idea about how things work around. I will never tell you that it will be easy. But neither too difficult.

It is all a matter of attitude. That will define you and your level of success. If you think that you can just flow through life as a leaf, well, you are right. But if you want more and you are committed, you have the desire to be more, and you think that you deserve more, well…you are right again and you will have it.

It is all a matter of attitude. If you look on a problem as a problem, it will remain a problem. If you look on the problem as a challenge, that the most probably you will try to fix it, sort it out, and the most probably, you will do it. Because you did not give up, you looked from a different angle, you tried to find solutions, options. There is always an option. There is up to you to make it right, to make the best possible decision. However, sometimes the decision you have taken it might be wrong. But that’s all right. As next time, you know what not to do or what to do better, do differently. It is just a matter of how you look on the situation. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe you don’t see it right through, but there is a reason. Maybe it wasn’t right. Maybe something better would come. Maybe you have learned something.

There is power in a positive attitude. With a positive attitude, an open heart and open mind, and with faith you can be whatever you want to be. All it matters is the experience what you gain along the way.

With love,

Cristina

HAPPINESS & FAITH

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Happiness. My dear friends, old and new ones. I can say this to you today: believe in yourself and never give up! 🙂 Because when you finally take the decision to follow your dreams, to be who you always wanted to be, and you have FAITH and the DESIRE to succeed, everything seems to fall on place.

I am on the beginning on my road, after I have decided to finally follow my dreams, a couple of months ago. I can tell you, and this based on my personal experience, that the journey is beautiful. Sometimes I get tired, sometimes I have to change direction, but in the evening, and basically throughout the day, I have the sensation of happiness, excitement and I feel fulfilled. I have a smile on my face, and the faith and desire to reach my dreams is growing and growing, expanding, I can see it in my mind, I can feel it in my whole body. Yoga gives me the calmness what I need, the office work and my new business gives me the excitement, my blog gives me then hope and my family gives me the love :). I am so grateful for my life. 🙂 I am lucky, I believe in myself more than ever and I feel that I am powerful, I am unstoppable and I know that the best of my life is yet to come.

I know how is to live on the streets, to work as a cleaner, to work in office environment, to be left out and to be without money. But I realized that it was ME who attracted all this in my life.

But NOW I am extremely happy , I feel complete and I KNOW for certain that my dreams will come true. I know what to give in exchange of my wellness and happiness, what makes my heart sing, and my world spin around. I want to share with you all what I have experienced through changing my mind set, starting to believe in myself, building my future as I always wanted to. I am surrounded by like-minded people, and the Universe always gives me new opportunities. I am open and grateful.

You too can live the life what you have always wanted. Dare to be YOU, dare to follow your dreams. Do not hesitate to contact me if you feel that I can help or if you consider to work with me as your life coach.

Love, Cristina

THE POWER OF GOAL SETTING

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Hello again my old and new dear Friends! Hope you had a great time during holidays, spend it with your loved ones, full of joy, laughter and happiness.

This is the beginning of a New Year, new opportunities and new possibilities. On New Year Eve, many of us make promises, set goals, wish for their dreams to come true in the new year, and many keep going for a while. As the days pass on, most of the people forget about what they wanted, or simply get caught up in the old routines and find it difficult to get out from their comfort zone, as a consequence they give up too soon and too easy, they forget about the goals and promises made to themselves for the new year. Sooner or later they will find good excuses why they can’t do this or that, in many cases the say ‘I don’t have the time’, ‘I don’t know how’, ‘it’s too difficult’, ‘I don’t have the resources’ and so on.

But when you set your goals and decide to follow your dreams, it should be not just on one evening of the year. You should remind yourself and push yourself towards your goals every day of the year. Make every day to count, make every day a little step forward and slowly you will see the results, you will move toward the success. The journey matters, not necessarily the goal. The beautiful and sometimes hard journey, during which you will change in many ways. Stay true to yourself, believe in yourself, build up your self-confidence, but don’t be arrogant. You will find strengths in yourself what you never thought that you have, life will bring in your life new people, new opportunities, all you have to do is to recognize the opportunity what has been given to you, as an answer to your wishes, grab it and make it blossom. The journey matters, no matter how easy or hard it will be. Step out of your comfort zone, that’s one of the limitations in your way to be successful, face your fears, work hard and change your mind setting. Stay positive, in everything try to find something positive, something to learn from, avoid negative people who will bring you down, surround yourself with likeminded, positive thinking people. Feel the joy, the happiness, it comes from within you. You are the only one who can make the decision in the beginning of your day, you can decide whether to be happy or angry and sad the whole day, frustrated and blaming everyone and everything for your circumstances.

It doesn’t matter if the goal you set for yourself is too high. There is no such thing as too big dreams, there are only limitations, created by your own old beliefs, your old habits, own fears. Don’t be afraid to dream big, go toward your every day, even where you are the only one who can see the dream. Make your goals to be specific and realistic, don’t set unachievable goals on a short term, as it will lead to disappointment. Choose your goals in a realistic way, make a list of what you want to achieve within one year, one month or today. Build in yourself the desire, the want, to achieve the goal, and you will find that possibilities will appear in your way. Believe in yourself and in the higher force of the universe, have faith and never let anyone to tell you that you can’t make it, you are not good enough, you aim too high. Never let negative people poison your mind with their limited mind set. You can’t change people, but you can change yourself. You will see the world and everything in it from a different perspective, you will find something beautiful in it in every step of the way, will find every day something to be grateful for.

No dream is too big, no goal is too high is you find in yourself the power to follow the dream. Be brave and never give up, even when it seems hard. Your mind is powerful, use it wisely, learn to focus on your goal and you will succeed.

You see, I myself sometimes face difficulties and situations in my life what looks like are blocking me, but the real strengths is to find the way to keep on going, maybe change a little bit the direction, but continuously moving forward. Don’t overthink, as overthinking may create problems what are not even there, keep it simple, and move forward.

Saying all this, I wish you all that may all your dreams come true in this New Year. Believe in yourself and maybe seek for help and advice whenever you feel insecure or down. You will find people around you, willing to help, or maybe you will find the answer within yourself if you pay attention to your inner voice. If you want to make a difference, if you are willing to try, maybe I can help you. Get in touch with and we can discuss, maybe even we can work together, learn from each other. Send me a message on my website and we can have a chat.

Love, Cristina