WHERE I AM NOW?
Tuesday morning. Sunny and nice weather in London. Although, a little bit chilly 🙂
I have decided to take a day off today. What is pretty strange, as in the past few months I had no idea what a day off is. Actually, whenever I take a “day off” ended with me working from home. Maybe I am not consistent. I don’t know. Yes, I have “me minutes” or maybe, if I am lucky enough that “me hours”, but a whole “me day”…well..not really.
I am going forward and forward, and apply all those smart stuff what I know I have to apply. But my brain, seems like doesn’t really want to cooperate. When I learn one thing, I start to apply and I am pretty proud of myself, then another thing is coming up, and the “now what” question pops up. It’s never ending. That is ok, I know that. But my brain, my mind, sometimes goes here and there, distracting me. Continuously.
I am the type of person, who want all and I want it now. Funny, no? Being patient, waiting for the results to come, that is the toughest part of all. Train myself to be patient, that’s a challenge. A huge one. Enormous one. Then, get rid of all negative vibes, all negative people from my life. That’s a hard one too. I am trying hard to ignore, to avoid, but it looks like no matter I do, they keep coming back like a boomerang. I attract them, probably. Maybe. Definitely, if I think about the law of attraction.
Can someone explain me, how comes, that negative things happen faster than positive, negative people goes harder than that positive ones come, positive results come harder than the disappointing, not really good ones?
I do have the wish, the desire, I can see it in front of my eyes, I can feel it in every cell of my body. I know exactly how it will be. I know exactly how it looks like. I practice every day, I reached that point when even when I just think about it, I get very excited and feel the butterflies. But there is always a “but” and a “how” in my mind. From where it comes? How can I get rid of it? And when? How can I have a “day off” when all this thing cross my mind? Don’t get me wrong. It’s not about giving up. I will never give up. I have never give up. It is that burning curiosity, that feeling of ‘I want to know the answer”. Yes, I know that. I can fall sometimes, that’s ok. I learned to handle situations, look the other side of the story. Still, there is the question.
I am not an ignorant. I consider myself a quick learner. Oh, yes. I learn fast. I have a diploma in life coaching, I study psychology. “I know” everything in my conscious mind, what and how should I do. But can someone tell me, how can I make my dream to be my reality? How to stay positive all the time? How to keep the positive state of mind?
I talked in my writings earlier, about believing in yourself, be positive and never give up. I told you that’s a tough one, in the beginning. I am at the beginning. For me is difficult as well sometimes. It is a continuous battle with myself. My conscious and my unconscious mind. My habits, my beliefs, my environment, my friends, my family, everything. That’s a lot to carry. Now I can see that what I am asking from you to do, it is difficult for me as well sometimes. I will find the answer to my questions. Sooner or later. I am a curious type of person. I want to help myself, and through this, to help others. But be aware, if you are staying with me, it will be a bumpy journey. But you know what? All that matters is the peace of your mind, the final destination, the things what we can learn together along the way. The ups and downs.
Maintaining a positive state of mind it’s easier when you have money. 🙂 so, I want my first million. And I want it now 🙂
I wish you all a sunny day.